Wakes up to the gentle song that is being played in my computer, I think about the little things that make life great.
Life is a multivariate equation. To determine the max utility generated through the constraint expression, using Lagrange Multiplier...I think this equation contains infinitely independent random and time-dependent variable, with variables that have no physical meanings.
Life is great for me now.
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Random Thoughts
Woke up by the gentle warm of the sunlight pouring through my window panes. I stretch myself and myself a cup of green tea. Looking out the window while listen to 'What if this storm ends' by Snow Patrol. At that moment, I felt the same feeling as I had had during R5 where we gathered at Echo 2. The same gentle warmth from the sun signalling a EndEx. I think after yesterday fitful sleep I am satisfied. I am happy with everything that have bestowed upon myself right now. Results, Relationship, Work, and everything.
Time to kick start the day.
Time to kick start the day.
Monday, February 6, 2012
Monday, December 26, 2011
Done a 5 km run today...Saw some recruits booking in...That scene reminds me of 2 years back when I am still doing my National Service...2 weeks of confinement really change your life, especially when you are away from the comfort of civilian life. This is especially so if you accept things and values with an open mind. Combat PT, AGR, Speed training, strength training, route marches and many more are the mentally demanding stuff that you undergo. Frankly speaking, physical fitness is not important as a recruit. It is only through mental fitness will you be able to further build upon your physical and combat fitness. Most of the early training packages is meant to condition and overload. No matter how physically fit you are, you will definitely be overloaded and this is where weak minded recruits will give up.
I still faintly remember those times, when my IPPT is shit totally...After A lvls, after night after nights of feasting and mugging, my cardiovascular endurance is shit man srsly...However, with a strong mind, I improve my 2.4 timing from 14 mins to 10 flat in 1.5 months...I ran even when I am having a cough. I ran even though I am mentally and physically tired. Its really all in your mind. Once you tell yourself, you are giving up, you are going to give up. Pain is temporary, but glory is forever. This is the motto that I have been using since the first day I step into NS...
I still faintly remember those times, when my IPPT is shit totally...After A lvls, after night after nights of feasting and mugging, my cardiovascular endurance is shit man srsly...However, with a strong mind, I improve my 2.4 timing from 14 mins to 10 flat in 1.5 months...I ran even when I am having a cough. I ran even though I am mentally and physically tired. Its really all in your mind. Once you tell yourself, you are giving up, you are going to give up. Pain is temporary, but glory is forever. This is the motto that I have been using since the first day I step into NS...
Saturday, December 24, 2011
No opportunity to blog the past few days, as was having chalet with my co-workers and friends at pasis ris chalet...It was quite fun except for some unhappiness...
But, I realize the main takeaway from these few days, is that compromise is the key to peace. I realize that if I had not controlled my temper and egoistic nature, many unpleasant chain of events could have occurred. If I had not swallowed by pride, I realize that I may not be blogging here in this state of mind.
Anyway, today I took my dad's car to work. On the way, I reflected on the year of 2011. As the year draws to a close, it is time for reflection. This year, there was namely 2 defining moments. The first was the AOAC exercise. AOAC stands for Armour Officer Advance Course. My unit supported the 3 days 2 night exercise which comprises of one deliberate attack mission, followed by a delay mission and finally an advance mission. This was my first Full-Troops Exercise(FTX) with my man. In the past, all the exercises were TEWT (Training Exercise Without Troops) and these exercises are a poor reflection of the caliber and morale of the men in combat units. In order for these men to fight for you, you have to motivate and convince them. In unit, unlike in SAF Command Schools, the situation is not idealistic. Also, our infantry combat skills have worsen after all of us spent 5 months in School of Armour during our professional terms. The worst is our land navigation skills which is totally gone, because in SOA-ATI we mostly did vehicular navigation. As a Section Commander cum a platoon Breaching commander, I am expected to work individually, navigate and recce and bring the entire platoon or even company to cross the obstacle. My first breaching mission was a total disaster, as I lay my MG fire with the wrong azimuth and worst still, I selected one of the worst breaching points on the concertina wire. There is simply no reason why I should be breaching the wire on a slope. I think the stress from my troopers, umpire and my acting PC inevitably made my brain think irrationally. After that mission, we transited to delay mission which was occurring at night also. I guess it was disastrous also, because of the morale issue we experienced in the afternoon, the troopers weren't keen of digging their shell-scraps. Again, as an obstacle sai kang warrior, I was ordered to lay obstacles and mines and wat not along the axis. As we were located at the Initial Delay Line, we were given 2 hours to prepare the entire objective for delay. 2 hours was a mad rush. In the end, I have to thank my 2IC and my section guys who helped me to prepare the obstacles despite their shagginess and low morale. The learning point of AOAC is that as a leader, you have to motivate and influence in order for you to accomplish the task. Even in a uniformed service, shouting and scolding is never the best way to do things. Even if you get things done your way, chances are it will not be up to mark. As a leader, you to lead by example. This is the main takeaway I had after this exercise.
The next defining moment was actually ATEC STAGE 2. There my PC organized the platoon A-TEAM to accomplish the company hardest mission. Our platoon is always tasked to do funny stuff because our commanders and men are the combat fittest and are the most ingenious. I was part of the A-TEAM as a commander to lead the section of 7 people to establish block force position along Quentin axis.It was an axis of 7 km, and our insertion area was approximately 10 km away from the axis. There all of us, ran and jog for 12 km into the forest at night. I was leading the guys and I felt extremely motivated as if we are going for war LOL. I think the best of is I never hear a complain from the guys although we are carrying a lot of anti-tank equipment. I think all of us we very happy because we made it to the position 20 minutes faster than we have expected ourselves. In total we killed 7 tanks and AFV with 2 casualties in 10 hours. Finally, we made it back to our vehicle and we launched our Pluto-Lima assault. It was disaster, because our entire company was wiped out until only me, my platoon sgt, my MG gunner and a FO was alive. There we escaped and rallied the remains of the other combat vehicles to push forward to set up the delay position with little knowledge of the next mission objective. After many trials and tribulation, the A-team is the only surviving section of the company again...Pushing and fighting through the last final objective, we hit the S77 and exercise cut...ATEC is over...ORD is imminent...
All right...
But, I realize the main takeaway from these few days, is that compromise is the key to peace. I realize that if I had not controlled my temper and egoistic nature, many unpleasant chain of events could have occurred. If I had not swallowed by pride, I realize that I may not be blogging here in this state of mind.
Anyway, today I took my dad's car to work. On the way, I reflected on the year of 2011. As the year draws to a close, it is time for reflection. This year, there was namely 2 defining moments. The first was the AOAC exercise. AOAC stands for Armour Officer Advance Course. My unit supported the 3 days 2 night exercise which comprises of one deliberate attack mission, followed by a delay mission and finally an advance mission. This was my first Full-Troops Exercise(FTX) with my man. In the past, all the exercises were TEWT (Training Exercise Without Troops) and these exercises are a poor reflection of the caliber and morale of the men in combat units. In order for these men to fight for you, you have to motivate and convince them. In unit, unlike in SAF Command Schools, the situation is not idealistic. Also, our infantry combat skills have worsen after all of us spent 5 months in School of Armour during our professional terms. The worst is our land navigation skills which is totally gone, because in SOA-ATI we mostly did vehicular navigation. As a Section Commander cum a platoon Breaching commander, I am expected to work individually, navigate and recce and bring the entire platoon or even company to cross the obstacle. My first breaching mission was a total disaster, as I lay my MG fire with the wrong azimuth and worst still, I selected one of the worst breaching points on the concertina wire. There is simply no reason why I should be breaching the wire on a slope. I think the stress from my troopers, umpire and my acting PC inevitably made my brain think irrationally. After that mission, we transited to delay mission which was occurring at night also. I guess it was disastrous also, because of the morale issue we experienced in the afternoon, the troopers weren't keen of digging their shell-scraps. Again, as an obstacle sai kang warrior, I was ordered to lay obstacles and mines and wat not along the axis. As we were located at the Initial Delay Line, we were given 2 hours to prepare the entire objective for delay. 2 hours was a mad rush. In the end, I have to thank my 2IC and my section guys who helped me to prepare the obstacles despite their shagginess and low morale. The learning point of AOAC is that as a leader, you have to motivate and influence in order for you to accomplish the task. Even in a uniformed service, shouting and scolding is never the best way to do things. Even if you get things done your way, chances are it will not be up to mark. As a leader, you to lead by example. This is the main takeaway I had after this exercise.
The next defining moment was actually ATEC STAGE 2. There my PC organized the platoon A-TEAM to accomplish the company hardest mission. Our platoon is always tasked to do funny stuff because our commanders and men are the combat fittest and are the most ingenious. I was part of the A-TEAM as a commander to lead the section of 7 people to establish block force position along Quentin axis.It was an axis of 7 km, and our insertion area was approximately 10 km away from the axis. There all of us, ran and jog for 12 km into the forest at night. I was leading the guys and I felt extremely motivated as if we are going for war LOL. I think the best of is I never hear a complain from the guys although we are carrying a lot of anti-tank equipment. I think all of us we very happy because we made it to the position 20 minutes faster than we have expected ourselves. In total we killed 7 tanks and AFV with 2 casualties in 10 hours. Finally, we made it back to our vehicle and we launched our Pluto-Lima assault. It was disaster, because our entire company was wiped out until only me, my platoon sgt, my MG gunner and a FO was alive. There we escaped and rallied the remains of the other combat vehicles to push forward to set up the delay position with little knowledge of the next mission objective. After many trials and tribulation, the A-team is the only surviving section of the company again...Pushing and fighting through the last final objective, we hit the S77 and exercise cut...ATEC is over...ORD is imminent...
All right...
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
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